I lay flat on my living room sofa, wondering if the uneasiness in my stomach was from my recent binge eating or if it indicated a much more serious issue. Like food poisoning.
I writhed in pain as wave after wave of nausea hit me, distracted only by the pounding ache in my left temple. I shut my eyes, hugging the blanket closer.
How long, oh Lord? How long will I struggle with this eating issue?
How long before I master my cravings rather than letting them master me?
How long before I can look forward not just to the food at a meal but to the sweet fellowship of people around the table?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? Will my enemy triumph forever?
And then I remembered my dear friends’ counsel: “Asheritah, pray for freedom from this bondage. It doesn’t have to be this way forever. Jesus can set you free from food addiction and cravings. But you need to trust Him.”
And there, laying on my chocolately-brown coach with the plush blanket pulled over my head, moaning with the pain my unwise food choices have led to, I said a simple prayer:
“Lord Jesus, I don’t know when this battle will be over, and I know I have many hard fights ahead of me. But will you remind me of this painful moment when I’m tempted to give in to cravings? I am weak. But You are strong. I can’t overcome my food cravings, but You’ve already won the war. I trust You. Give me enough grace for today.”
I can’t say that the skies opened and I had an out-of-body experience. But I did have peace and a new perspective.
Today, if you’re going through a painful experience of your own, whether it’s an addiction, a diagnosis, a divorce, a loss, or any other hopeless valley, join me and David as we place our trust in God’s unfailing love.
It’s the best place we could be.
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