I stumbled upon her blog a few years ago and immediately fell in love with her heart for encouraging women. I had the joy of meeting her in real life a few months after that, and I don’t why or how, but I began sharing with her one of my biggest fears in ministry. As I burst into tears, she took me by the shoulders and spoke God’s Truth over my life, then began praying over me in such a powerful way that something shifted in my soul that day, and freedom kicked out fear.
If anyone knows about fighting fear, it’s this special woman right here, Kelly Balarie. I’m thrilled to invite her on my blog today, and I know you’ll be blessed by her words. (And make sure you enter the giveaway at the bottom of this post!)
Around the table sat my 5 brothers and sisters. With this, we all knew the drill: when the food hit the table, you had to grab your portion as quickly as your fork could move. Whoever got there first and ate the fastest, got the greatest portion.
I’d perfected this practice. Being the oldest afforded me tricks and brute strength that others didn’t have.
I exaggerate slightly here, but much is true. I knew, if I wanted that last Twinkie, I needed to hide it so no one would find it. If I wanted to have a chance at diving into the fruit roll-ups my mom just bought at the store, I needed to nag her right away so I could eat them first. There was never enough and I always wanted more.
I guess if you were to pull the wrapper off my heart you could say – I desperately feared losing out, while everyone else got to enjoy the fullness of – everything.
I often default to this mindset – grab and get what I want – so others don’t take it first.
Do you? Do you have an insatiable appetite for things others have? Do you dream of a full table, yet feel like you are dining on scraps?
The fear of losing out, missing out and ending up empty handed – is real. You can almost see it. Everyone had their feast. Yet, here you come, late to the game. You sit down, surrounded by the crumbs. You notice the napkins streaked with smears of yumminess. You observe the sweet sugary remnants left in the bottom of the pie pan. You can nearly hear the laughs you weren’t a part of. It all turns your stomach.
Maybe it doesn’t happen to you this way, but it surely happens to me – just. like. this.
Of late, though, God’s tenderly circled my heart, speaking, “Kelly, this little place down here doesn’t believe in my goodness.”
It’s hard to argue with that. I guess, at times, I don’t.
Wanting to understand more, how to be free of this fear, God, then, handed me these two verses:
- “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” (Matt. 6:33)
- Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. (Matt. 6:10)
And, my friends, this is where God opened the eyes of my jealous, discontent and discouraged little heart…
I have the opportunity to bring God’s kingdom to earth. I do this, not when I’m earthly minded, but when I’m spiritually minded. For seeing through “kingdom” eyes, helps me see past fleshly lies.
What if we were to operate with a kingdom mentality instead of a kill-or-be-killed mentality?
A kingdom mentality operates like this:
- God, you have great plans for me and you are behind me.
- God, with you behind me, I cannot fail.
- God, time is no barrier for you and my weakness no obstacle.
- God, I can applaud others great ministry wins. They are fabulously furthering your kingdom.
- God, I can talk to you all the time. When I don’t know – you do.
- God, you have designated a way out of any temptation I find myself in.
- God, I can bless others in full, because you will take care of me.
- God, you have created a path for each daughter that is unique, fantastic and glory-filled. I will encourage people along the way.
- God, it is movement of the body of Christ that makes Jesus come alive in dead hearts. I will support it.
- God, it is not my story, but yours. I want to seek, all the time, every day, your desire for me.
This is the thrill, the joy-ride. It is sitting at God’s banqueting table, with excitement and thrill. For here, we see, by faith. We find it’s much more than our personal promotion, but it is all about – seeing God’s kingdom in motion.
It is brute power, his going. It is His life, poured out. It is fire, unleashed. It’s purpose, renewed. It is the Word of God, walking and moving – into the fog of the world. It is all us believers, believing. It is people taking notice. It is women feeling supported. It is lives being changed. It is hearts being revived. It is the kingdom finding its way – to earth.
We are invited to the fullness of God’s table. Let’s join hands and step in, together, towards the great things God has for each and every one of us. There is plenty to go around.
Kelly is both a Cheerleader of Faith and a Fighter of Fear. She leans on the power of God, rests on the shoulder of Christ, and discovers how to glow in the dark places of life. Get all Kelly’s blog posts by email or visit her on her blog, Purposeful Faith. You can also find a variety of resources for your fight against fear here.
About the book Fear Fighting
Author and Speaker, Kelly Balarie didn’t always fight fear – for a large part of her life, she was controlled by it. Yet, in her book, Fear Fighting: Awakening Courage to Overcome Your Fears, with God, Kelly charts a new course. Join Kelly, on the journey to go and grow with Christ’s bravery, the Spirit’s counsel and God’s unending love that squelches fear. This book reads like a love letter from God, while offering practical heart-calming prayers, anxiety-reducing tips, and courage-building decrees that will transform your day. Buy Fear Fighting today! Or, Join the 4 Days to Fearless Challenge!